Saturday, December 2, 2017

How College Made Me Lose my Love of Reading

Do I miss reading, or is it that I miss childhood?

Originally published on April 11, 2016

Reading has been my favorite activity of choice for most of my life, up until I started college. I am still trying to figure out why that is. What sort of mentality did I create within the first few weeks that had me put down a book and not pick one up again for months? I can think of several reasons that could have contributed. I do not own many e-books, so using my phone for between-class downtime consists of checking on social media or catching a few minutes of Netflix. If I had more e-books, would I read more? Also, there is much required reading for classes that is not terribly entertaining. If reading was less of a chore, would I read more?

To me, thinking about reading is synonymous with thinking about childhood. Childhood is when you let your imagination run wild, and the books I read brought more material to work with. Why else did I insist on dressing up like a pioneer girl from Little House on the Prairie two Halloweens in a row, or find the base camps for the imaginary warrior cats that lived in our woods, as though the Warriors saga took place there? I remember trading book back and forth with my brothers and going to the library to emerge with a giant stack. Every holiday a new book was added to a series. I would read while I ate, read outside, read inside, read at recess, and in between classes.

Reading brought me my first experiences of friendship due to common interest. I did not watch the same TV shows or listen to the same music as others before high school, but my best friends and I read the same books. A Series of Unfortunate Events, Harry Potter, The Hunger Games, Percy Jackson, and Warriors were the main ones. I remember eagerly awaiting for the next books to come out and sometimes we would just trade the newest book around. It would have a different owner every day as we devoured them during middle school.

They say the best way to become a better writer is to read and imitate the story styles you like. I was no exception to this rule, having written things such as Warriors fanfiction; a concept similar to Little House; and my main project, which had humble beginnings as a planned series at a school of magic, just like Harry Potter. Many things have brought me to where I am today, but reading probably had the most to do with it. Reading was my childhood. Reading shaped me like TV shows and music shaped others. I owe a lot of who I am to the stories I read then.

This school year I have read two new books, both of which during breaks despite looking forward to said books for months, and I can think of at least two more I want to read. I do not want to keep this pattern up during the next school year. I want to find again that joy of being lost in my own head for hours. Or perhaps this is my way of telling myself I want to be a child again and experience that limitless imagination and wonder. Either way, I will answer the call.


If you too are feeling this slump and emptiness, take the advice I plan on acting on during the summer: reread your favorite childhood books. Have a nostalgia party with yourself. Feel like a ten-year-old again. Enjoy the trip down memory lane with your childhood heroes. 

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